Living in the tension of "things can wait" and "this has to get done today / right now". Holding space for Owen and Eric and their needs. Holding space for the needs of my small community. All while acknowledging the big and small duties that I also owe to myself and to my dreams. My dreams tether me to other people. My clients, my business partners, the government, a bank, etc. They too need a slice of my attention. I feel simultaneously like I have enough capacity to serve everyone but also like I have nothing at all to give. I'm continously strethced and impressed with myself for not breaking under tha pplied pressure. I'm hopeful of even more expansion and also ready for the release of the tension. I am hoping that this cycle never ends and also that it stops soon.
This tension is so new to me, and at times so hard. Nonetheless, it's proven to be valuable.
I think I love the woman I'm becoming,
In the tension.